Testimony from Sue – April 2011

Jules is one of the Buddhists at the Compassionate Heart Shrine (part of the Esoteric Hanmi Linage) and for the last few years, has been on a very differentadventure to most of us.

Jules for me, is the very stable child psychologist and counselor who has helped me understand my very clever and naughty son, counseled me and helped me move forward through an ugly divorce from a violent and very confused man and is still
giving her counseling to me to help me understand the on-going situations that are not personal but feel very much so at times.

The beginning of 2011 has been hideous for me. I asked my doctor for help withanti-depressants because I was struggling. The father of my son decided hewanted full residence of our son and started a very personal attack. A few daysafter my son leaving, I arrived at my parents to find my mother on her last breath,two months on, she’s been sent home to die but is having none of it, which is
awesome to watch and a relief. With that relief followed time to start dealing with the past four months and a huge slide downward , feeling no point or purpose, not amother nor a daughter, no role in the world with nothing to give, my head hurt fromthinking about moving to Dorset or taking a ferry to France, realising that what I truly wanted was not to exist, just vanish, not feel anymore.

It is so very hard to turnabout from. So my very concerned friend Jules phoned, expressed her worry for me and did what Jules does best, told me I was going to hers for lunch. I hugged my dear friend when I arrived and the tears still flowed from my eyes. I wasn’t crying but water kept flowing as it had been for over a month,
explained it had to stop as my eyes hurt my ears hurt and throat from not being able to stop crying. Lots of cups of tea, lots of listing to her son’s being very teen boys, all very homely and safe there.

I asked Jules for help giving me her professional counselling anything, healing whatever she had in the kit bag to help as I was so scared on where I was going in my mind.

Jules decided to give healing. A bit of chanting sitting in the cosy warm room that’s the shrine, listening to very tranquil cd with my eyes closed and all I had to do was keep my mind focused on a mantra, no dark thoughts or happy thoughts just mantra.

I thought this day, at this time, a focused mind ‘oh I’ll be lucky’, but it was, my head was quiet, I could keep the short chant going I could feel numb, the feeling of hysteria left and the next half hour would be a small relief before going home and all thoughts coming slamming back in.

I am a bit miffed in the nicest way that I got sent home by Jules with the demand to keep doing the chant as much as I can, even wrote it down so I couldn’t say I’d forgotten it, haven’t got a dog to chew it up either ....

Next morning began. I normally open my eyes and feel the sadness of still being here, crying because another long sad day had started . . . again, but nope none of that, I’ve been waiting and I can say as strange as it sounds, it feels even more odd,
I could be dreaming. Day after day, I keep waking up a very different personality, I’m me but not living with the same head, a happy peaceful mind, I’m not feeling tormented by my own thoughts as they are no longer dark, I don’t know where the
sadness went, it’s feels as if they got pushed out because there is no room left with all the positive bright stuff that got squiggled into every last corner of my being.

I have no idea how hard Jules had to push or who she asked or the effort put in on my behalf. This is the evidence for me, bit of blimmin chanting that’s all I have to do, like Dora in finding Nemo “Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming”

I will keep chanting. How, Who, Why, I’m not concerned with, its peaceful here now.

Thanks Jules – Sue S.

 

Susan and Alice in conversation with

Vajracharya: Mary O Connor on their experiences since they began coming to the Healing Meditation Sessions, 5 weeks ago March 2011 Cork

Susan:Angie asked me to come and meet you here, you had come back from China and shewanted me to come and meet you because you had gone to do some healing course and so I came here and I sat there by the telephone and I spoke to you and you started telling me what you are all about and what you were doing in China.

I then called my friend Therese, that’s my neighbour in Youghal, she had gone to hospital because she also suffers with cancer, like me. And I told her to come and meet me here so she could have a healing session and so we went to meet Therese on the South Mall.

Therese was very stressed out because there was something happening in her throat and at that time I had a lot of pain because I had been diagnosed with secondary cancer.

I had breast cancer and then I had been diagnosed with bone cancer on the top of my neck, on the middle of my back, right at the bottom of my back on the left and side of my pelvis, my seventh rib on the right hand side, and the eight rib on the left hand side, but I was in a hell of a lot of pain, and I was on nine pain killers a day.

When we had our first session I felt so relaxed and then I started coming to you every week twice a week. Then I started getting spasms then I called my friend Alice and asked her to come and join me and she joined us and we met Dan Kendall and Dan did a healing on us and then we came back to Mary again and she did a healing on me and the spasms went and then she and Jennifer were doing healings on me and the pain subsided.

Then I went to the doctor and the doctor told me that they have seen another spot on the back of my neck and I started to worry but Mary and Jennifer continued to do the healing on me and when I went to see my Oncologist he told me that the cancer hadn’t improved and hadn’t worsened it’s just there.

And with the pain I don’t really suffer any more, I used be really tired and slept a lot andnow I’m not as tired as I used to be I’m more energetic. I feel like there is nothing wrong with me.

Alice: After your first session on Friday you told me how much you enjoyed it and how much you got from it and you asked if I would accompany you to the session on Sunday at the doctors house..... and that session for me was just incredible.

I still can’t get over it because during the healing my heart started to race and it was absolutely banging from side to side it wasn’t a panic attack or palpitations, it wassomething I never experienced before but I was not frightened so I relaxed into it and enjoyed it.

I had a lot going on with me, I was stressed and depressed at times I didn’t care if I lived or died, even out driving sometimes I thought you know it doesn’t matter if I go over a ditch or not. It was that bad.

There was so much hate inside me and so much anger I was just really bogged down with this and at some stage when my heart was really banging that time somebody opened the door during the session. I was aware of what was going on around me and I can remember one quick flash of thought and wishing I could get rid of those feeling's out of my heart and eventually the thought just went and the door closed.

We carried on with the session andwhen it finished and we opened our eyes I was sitting there mesmerised. I didn’t know what had hit me and when we were asked what we felt I related the story. It was just so amazing and the only way I could described what happened was when the door opened it was though it was opened to let badness and evil out.

When I said that, Dan just smiled and said “it was invited to go” and I can remember you saying to me I actually looked different. It was as if a millstone had been lifted off my chest and shoulders. I have actually been walking on air since. I’ve been a totally different person.

Out of the blue Mary said to me “by the way how’s your shoulder Alice” ? For two days previous I had had a vicious pain down the side of my neck and down into my shoulder. Now I suffer from arthritis but it wasn’t that and when Mary asked how it was after the two days of tremendous pain I realised that it was actually gone and I haven’t had it since.

And then during another session it was my arthritis that was bad in my shoulder and after that session that was gone and it hasn’t come back. People I haven’t seen in a while tell me I look great.

Susan: People are saying the same about me and the swelling in my face has gone down:

Alice: I met a friend who I hadn’t seen in a year and a half and I rang her and when she heard my voice she said she was so mortified we hadn’t talked in so long and we started talking and I told her how fantastic I was and she was so surprised because she had never expected that answer.

When she met me the next day she was amazed at how I look and that all the stress was gone out of my face.

Susan: I was also giving up and I was counting the days as I was given two years to live, but now I feel so confident I just feel good in myself. Little things don’t bother me anymore and I feel I am going to live and coming for these healing I know that something is going to happen. Everybody in my cancer group say Susan you look marvellous.

Alice: I remember after one session, in the morning I woke up light and bright as a button and it was as if layers of crap are being peeled away after every session.

Susan: I wish other women who are suffering or anybody would come and get from you what we have gotten. People wonder how I’m improving and I tell them about these healing's but of course it takes some people time to come around to these ideas.

Alice: I am a totally different person now, and before I often used think why can’t I go back to the nice person I used to be, you know, calm and patient . I had gotten to the stage where I was vicious with other people and with myself. I was out of control. I was angry with myself for feeling like that. I couldn’t even help other people with their problems anymore.

I really didn’t care ,and I had had enough and the thought of hitting a fence in the car didn’t frighten me because I looked forward to meeting my dad and my sister in heaven because I absolutely adored them.

Susan: And what about me?

Alice: I'll take you with me you’ll have to meet your twin. I feel Susan is a replacement for my sister that I lost.

Susan: We're not going anywhere.

This Conversation is Available as an MP3 download here

 

 

Alison Tanner

I had my first child, Jessica in 1997 and my second in 1999. In the summer of 2001, (or there abouts), we went on a summer holiday, visiting Yorkshire and being driven many miles. Every day I suffered with a really bad 'numb bum' - the kind you get when you have sat in the cinema for two hours. I thought nothing of it, but when the pain continued, I went to my doctors who said, 'you apear to have broken your coccyx, now how have you done that?'. I honestly had no idea! But it now seems that an uncomfortable encounter with a broken toilet seat, which may have fractured the bone and the subsequent birth of my second child may have left me with a very painful broken coccyx. (Just in case you don't know, the coccyx is the bit right at the base of the spine, it is what is left of our taill)

I had a several cortisone injections directly into the coccyx, but these did not help. I then had a very painful operation to try to straighten it which left me with terrible sciatica. I then had my tail docked and was still in immense pain because I was left with a little spur at the base of the sacrum. My final operation was in 2004, this was then the surgeon removed the spur along with the lower part of my sacrum. During all this time, and after, I was in an awlful lot of pain and sought help/advice from Chiropractitioners, Physio, Reiki, pilates. Apart from post op, I continued to work and was supplied with a coccyx cut out cushion and a very expensive chair - thus making work the most comfortable place for me to be, (how sad!). I also purchased, heat pillows, tens machine and used cold compresses, all of which would give temporary relief, but the effect would soon wear off.

The last treatment I had through the hospital was lithotripsy, which is where an injury is created, to enable the body to repair itself - it's the same treatment given to people with kidney stones, and it didn't work for me. I had this last treatment in December 2007 and when I was discharged by my consultant in the spring of this year, he told me there was nothing else he could do for me. The pain was constant and consisted of a continual 'numb bum' feeling and sciatica and stiff hip joints, it was painful when I sat and when I got up to walk around again. It also affected my sleeping - I just couldn't get comfortable.

In July 2008, I received an e-mail from Hadleigh Country Park inviting me to the Mini Buddha Picnic. I was keen to go because of the drum workshop - I had recently acquired a set of bongoes for my birthday. I asked my friend if she'd like to come along. We turned up together on a lovely sunny Sunday afternoon. My children came too and had a wonderful time. Myself and Sandy were chatting when someone came and told us that the Master was to talk and invited us to come along. To tell the truth I wasn't that interested, but Sandy was, and with my children off doing their own thing I thought that I might as well join her.

When we got to the door, the place seemed to be packed, I was glad because I wanted to stand, (REALLY uncomfortable sitting on those benches with coccyx pain, believe me!). Thorugh his interrpretor, Master invited us to sit and it seemed really rude to refuse. By luck, we were right at the front. When Master started to talk he asked it anyone felt anything, a few people put up their hands - I'm a bit of a sceptic I'm afraid and was not at all moved or impressed by this.

However(!), when we came to the meditation, I was listening to the words, but inwardly I was having trouble disconnecting with the world and was planning my shopping list or else thinking about all the things I needed to do for our up coming holiday. I did, however, repeat the mantra. Very suddenly, I felt a knock against my lower back, I though that someone had thumped me - I quickly realised this couldn't be the case since they must be meditating. I then started to shake, went hot and cold, sweated and then the tears came - it was as though I was sobbing, but making no noise. I couldn't stop the tears. I was then aware that my lower back was really cold and that there was no pain. (It is really strange, that when you are in constant pain, you realise instantly when the pain stops, and I had been in pain for years).

The meditation then ended and Master asked if anyone felt anything. I am very sorry, but I could not put my hand up, I would've made a fool of myself. Afterwards, I went to see one of the team and told them what had happened, he was really pleased and told me to take it easy.....five minutes later I was sitting crossed legged and bongoeing!

I am pleased to say that I am still pain free. I had a slight set-back on holiday when I overdid it - I clambered over one too many rocks! However, that night I repeated the mantra whilst lying in bed and was soon pain free again. I went back to work after a six week leave period at the beginning of September, I found that I no longer need my coccyx cut out cushion to sit on - I actually find it uncomfortable in the same way that my colleagues do when they accidentally sit on my chair. My colleagues have also said that I look different and seem a lot more positive - it's amazing the effect that pain has on your life.

I can honestly say that my experience has changed my life and I am so grateful, and please be assured that I am telling anyone who'll listen.

John Kimmy

A year ago,I was very ill with an enlarged prostate which had grown so large it was interfering with my bladder function. I was in great pain and had been diagnosed with cancer of the prostate. I was manager of a retreat center in Hawaii and we were hosting Dechan Jueren,(Master Yu), for ten days. When I met him he said he planned to administer Medicine Buddha healings daily for those with serious illness. I told him of my condition and he invited me to receive his treatments. 

After ten days he told me that I should receive more and invited me to join him on Maui for another fifteen days. I received all those treatments for 2 hrs a day. On January 1st I was in such pain I checked into emergency at Maui hospital and was in intensive care while they treated my immediate emergency, a burst kidney. Then they referred my case to the Army hospital on Oahu. There they prepared me for removal of my prostate. A biopsy at that time revealed that there was no sign of the cancer in both the bladder and the prostate. During the two weeks of hospitalization I chanted the Medicine Buddha mantra continuously. My surgery was difficult, losing a liter of blood and the stopping of my heart. The doctors again biopsied the organ and found it negative for cancer. 

I am now feeling completely recovered and have continued the Medicine Buddah practice daily. I am now treating others and teaching the practice. I have complete faith in the Dharma practice and know I was healed through it. My life was saved, I am certain, through the influence of Master's great healing powers.

John Kimmy June 2007